How I Turned My Flaws Into Strengths

I've embraced myself for what I am now!

Feb 18 2018 23 comments 2,184

Hi! I’m Octavia Rose and I’m a “New Cummer” to ManyVids! I joined in early 2017. I had a lot of reservations at first, as I’m sure the majority of us do. I know for myself, I saw a lot of “flaws” in myself that made me delay joining the industry.

My main issue with myself was my weight. I’ve always been heavy and I’ve also had children. I felt that I needed help in getting the weight off, so 2011 I had gastric bypass. I lost about 120 lbs. But I ended up plateauing and found myself still being overweight, despite having lost that much weight. Now while I weighed less and the majority of my other health problems subsided, I was still overweight and also had lost a lot of my breast mass. I felt like I looked deflated but I still had some boobies, a belly, thighs, and all the stuff that makes a BBW. So instead of looking at myself as a woman who was struggling with my weight, I decided to look at my body objectively and see what I had to offer.

I knew that I was going to be fetishized so I decided to work with what I’ve got. I am a BBW, despite my own personal journey with my weight. I embrace it. This is “what” I am right now but it doesn’t define me as a person. I’m building my persona around the fact that I’m a BBW and I’ll tell you from experience, it feels awesome to embrace myself where I currently am. And I never knew there were so many men (and women) into BBWs! I love that I can take my so-called societal “flaws” and turn them into something I can make a career out of.

Throughout this journey, I’ve learned that at no matter what size you are, what your nose looks like, whatever your voice sounds like, there is ALWAYS someone out there who adores you just as you are. And it’s not always a fetish thing. Some people just appreciate the beauty of bigger women or whatever you may have been told your “flaw” is. The most important thing is to love yourself. Practice self-care (which includes limiting negative self-talk and being around those who make you feel “less than”) and you will begin to see yourself for the beautiful, powerful human that you are. You got this!

Octavia Rose 

clplay Feb 2018

I can relate to this in several ways AND from the other side of the coin. I was always "that guy" that liked " that fat girl".....lol. Now I am that "old guy"....lol. What's not to love about all women? Big, small, no tits, big tits, big thighs, skinny ass, and the list goes on. As a lone time Dominant, and this means before the internet and cell phones ( Yeah I know I just told on myself...lol) , I realized that fetish's are what they are. It doesn't matter what you are into it only matters that you enjoy it. There is always someone out there that likes what you like.
You hit on the one thing I have always taught my subs/slaves.
"....The most important thing is to love yourself."  Well said and for many, many reason's.

Octavialeigh91
Octavialeigh91 deleted Feb 2018

Very inspiring and beautifully written! You are definitely one of my top favorite BBW's! 😘😍💙

Tiffany Cinch
Tiffany Cinch deleted Feb 2018

<3

Octavia Rose
Octavia Rose deleted Feb 2018

<3 <3

nobodyisherepickle12
nobodyisherepickle12 deleted Feb 2018

Yess, love this!! As a fellow BBW it was hard for me to put myself out there like this but I'm glad I have! I feel a lot less insecure about myself because of it. I have a skin condition that has caused me to have a lot of irritation and scarring where my thighs rub together instead of normal chaffing and that was my biggest issue with getting into this industry. Literally no one has ever said anything about it so it just shows that a lot of our insecurities or "flaws" that we focus on usually aren't big deals at all to other people.

Octavia Rose
Octavia Rose deleted Feb 2018

You're so right. Stuff that we see in ourselves that we are insecure about, the majority of the time other people don't even notice it! I'm glad you put yourself out there :) It's great to hear it has helped you fee less insecure. We need more empowered women in this industry!

KoraRoseXXX Feb 2018

I've dabbled in and out of the sex industry for a few years now, and with so many breaks I can relate with the procrastination of re-entrance because of personal insecurities. What's great is that once you get yourself out there, you realize that you're someone's cup of tea! It's so wonderful that there is room for for everyone in this industry. I love that you took charge of your perceived "flaws" and embraced them!

Octavia Rose
Octavia Rose deleted Feb 2018

Thank you! And I totally agree, you are always going to appeal to someone but if you don't put yourself out there, they can't find you. I'm glad you are here and working through your insecurities. I think it's something we all go through at one time or another. I've dealt with it more times than I'd like to admit but one can only fail if they give up. Let's never give up!

I think you’re beautiful, and I’m NOT a pc snowflake. I never feel like I “have to” say something nice...I truly think so

Octavia Rose
Octavia Rose deleted Feb 2018

Thank you so much and I appreciate your authenticity :)

munjah Feb 2018

Love your cunt

Octavia Rose
Octavia Rose deleted Feb 2018

Hehe, thank ya :P

Arikajira Feb 2018

I love the way you came full circle and have now the confidence in yourself and who you are, this always shines out, and just with your own happiness it becomes infectious as people see you happy and a joy to be around.

On a personal note, I bet there are plenty people who look back with a wry smile and wish they were as ‘fat’ now as the first time they thought themselves fat! ... for me that was when I was about about 160lb, and a UK size 12-14 about 10yrs ago! .. I am now around about 185lb (haven’t checked in ages!) and feeling far more body confident

Octavia Rose
Octavia Rose deleted Feb 2018

I know right! I've always been fat and this is my "smallest' but I even before I lost weight, I never realized how much I attributed certain things to my weight, like dating and even trying new things. It's really more of a mindset and not a size that dictates how you live your life, you know what I mean? Thank you so much for reading and responding :)

Arikajira Feb 2018

I grew up with a mother who was a major fat shamer, that for example, Worth was measured by how much (or little you weighed) 
she has two sisters both plump, and both gone on the be very successful in their working lives, but she thinks she is the one who is the most successful of the three of them as she is slim and they are not

Octavia Rose
Octavia Rose deleted Feb 2018

I can relate. A lot of mothers unknowingly (and some knowingly unfortunately) speak detriment into the lives of their children because of their own insecurities or patterns of thinking. Fat, slim, or in the middle, looks doesn't matter to most people more so than kindness shown to them.

DaniZombie
DaniZombie deleted Feb 2018

I’ve had some doubts lately about the industry because of my size, I find your story so inspirational <3<3<3

Octavia Rose
Octavia Rose deleted Feb 2018

Yay!! I'm so glad! There is definitely a market for ladies of all sizes and shapes!

sangrea
sangrea deleted Feb 2018

Custom nude catwalk from you would be great! Msg me if interested:)

LustyBustyLark
LustyBustyLark deleted Feb 2018

I don't see flaws at all. All I see is a beautiful woman ❤

Octavia Rose
Octavia Rose deleted Feb 2018

Thank you love!!

Cattie Feb 2018

The type-o in the title is killing me >_<
This is a great article though, Octavia! This industry truly allows us to get more comfortable with ourselves and help us build our self confidence. You are beautiful! Keep up the good work <3

Octavia Rose
Octavia Rose deleted Feb 2018

Thank you so much <3 <3

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