I’ve always been big.
From the time I knew what weight was, I knew I was OVERweight. It took a serious toll on my confidence. As I got older, I started to believe that men simply didn’t want fat women. I truly believed that if I didn’t lose weight, I would never have sex, a relationship, or a family. The fact that I didn’t date or had even kissed anyone until I was 18 only served to solidify that thought.
Even when I did start dating and exploring sex I kept it in the back of my mind. Whenever a date went badly or a relationship ended I would think, “It’s because I’m fat. If I was thin, this wouldn’t have happened.” I was lost, in a constant state of self-loathing, and always losing and gaining crazy amounts of weight.
When I first came across camming I thought I was too big to even try. The cam model community seemed like a never-ending parade of skinny, cellulite-free goddesses. The job seemed perfect for me, but I was convinced I was barred in some way because of my size.
Finally, after months of losing and getting to my lowest weight ever...I decided to try camming. I fell in love. As I had suspected, my calling truly was to entertain people naked. But after finding so much happiness in my new chosen career path... my weight started to creep up again and with every pound, I felt more and more hopeless. "My regulars would be disgusted," I thought... "my earnings would decline..." I was sure of it...
It was then that I really started to look further into the BBW community.
I was stunned! Here were beautiful, creative, and incredibly successful women WITH BODIES LIKE MINE! I followed each chubby babe I came across until my Twitter timeline was a place of inspiration instead of depressing comparison. I finally felt a sense of peace with my body.
Before I started working as a sex worker, I had never once looked at my rolls or cellulite in a positive manner. But now, as I'm surrounded by big, beautiful women embracing and loving themselves, my confidence grows! I catch myself admiring my soft tummy, thinking how cute my chubby kitty is, and branding myself as BBW with PRIDE!
I can finally say, because of the BBW community, I love my body.
xo,
This is so absolutely beautiful!!! I love knowing that by having the courage to put yourself out there, by taking the chance to explore... that you've discovered that there are countless women whose stories not only resonate with your own, but who've helped you embrace your beauty and power and strength and divinity. I love knowing that each time you hear from one of your fans about how sexy you are, how much you turn them on, etccc... how that even adds to this sense of self-possession and confidence. You're such a beautiful, sexy woman. Seeing you blossom in every way - from the limited purview I have as a fanboy - both emotionally in your confidence and physically in your luscious curves... this is just phenomenally sxxxe!!! xoxoxo
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Love this article and youre gorgeous! Self love💚💚💚
This is a lovely article, i know how it feels to have low body esteem, and its a mountain to overcome. I think you are beautiful, and i am glad you do too.
What a great perspective. Loving yourself and your body is so important. You look great
Thank you for this lovely article
I love being a BBW in this community now. I used to have the worst self confidence, but now I'm willing to strut my stuff and show off my sexy body! I love all my bbw girls! (Just girls in general hehe)
Gorgeous and a sweetheart.
It's a constant struggle for almost every woman I think, myself included, especially learning to even be ok with your body, let alone loving it. So glad to read you've found your self-love! Keep on being the beautiful person you are!!!
I love this so much! You are gorgeous! ❤️
Hey beautiful
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I absolutely love this!! I went through the exact same situation, though I still struggle with it a lot...
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I may have made a ton of effort but honestly I still struggle alot too and that's okay! 💖
This is great. I love seeing a woman embracing her curves. Get it girl. I totally agree and feel the same. 💕
Great post is great to see you in that mental place right now and that you took a step towards camming because that led to your own exploring the BBW community:)
Thank you for so many kind comments, everyone! My heart is so full today 💖💫😻
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Great post, Penelope! I relate so much. I felt a lot of these same things, and I struggle to love my body and the weight I've put on. Also, I'm always in awe of how insanely beautiful you are: inside and out!
This is everything! So much love to you 🍑💕 I am so happy the BBW community was able to help aide you in learning to love your body! That is awesome.
Amazing!💕💕💕
I love this, we are so hard on ourselves, and I"m glad you found the supportive and inspirational space full of BBW models! You are so beautiful inside and out, Everyone has issues with their body, even if they never admit it. Keep loving yourself, and showing off your curves because girls are watching YOU, and YOU are giving THEM confidence too xo Love you lots
Great article. Everyone should be comfortable in their own skin.❤️
Who's cutting onions?! :'
You are so beautiful and inspiring!
Love u
Wow an amazing story! You go girl! 💖
YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL! great article btw
Now what
Here I am
Awesome