My name is Megan. I am from a small city in Washington state. I started camming and selling pre-made content about a year ago. Part of my choice to engage in sex work is knowing that I am extremely kinky. I knew I could make good money doing the fetish work that so many others won't do. (My goal is to move my ManyVids content in that direction.) I am currently very liberated in my sexuailty. I have been practicing BDSM in my personal life for a couple years. It is one of the best things that has ever happened to me.

Sadly, I was not always super comfortable engaging in kink. I knew from my late teens that I was into things that my peers were not into. As I became an adult, I would try to talk to my friends about it only to have them laugh or say something along the lines of “That's kind of weird.” A few were even worried. I also grew up in a house that shamed sexuality. My mother told me that engaging in kink is as bad as using crystal meth. When I asked her, “Well, what if this is something I am into, does that make me crazy?” She told me that it did, and that I needed to see a therapist. So, reluctantly, I saw a therapist. Of course the therapist wanted to talk about my childhood, because if your into being dominated then you must have been abused as a child! She then suggested I read a book on domestic violence. Needless to say, I did not go back.

My community made me think that I was mentally ill—that was the impact. That something was really wrong with me. Sex was something that I wasn't enjoying at all I couldn't wait for it to be over, which made me feel guilty. Romantic relationships were even harder for me. My need to be dominated went past the bedroom, but I was so ashamed and confused I didn't know how to talk to my partner. So I suppressed my kinks, and I told myself I was A-sexual and A-romantic. And even if that wasn't the truth I started to believe it because it felt better then feeling crazy.

It wasn't until I started to talking to someone I used to go to school with (I’ll call him John), who was a super freak too, that I started being open about the things I was into and also experiencing them. I realized there was nothing wrong with me, and there certainly wasn't anything wrong with John. I started doing research. That's when I learned about BDSM. I spent a lot of time looking at and trying different things. I found out what roles I liked best, what favorite fetishes were. I knew that this was exactly what I needed to be happy in my romantic relationships. Most importantly, I knew there was nothing wrong with me.

My goal going forward is to help educate people on BDSM. I don't know how I'm going to do that yet, but I know it is important to me. Nobody should ever be made to feel the way I was made to feel. I have now been practicing BDSM for a couple years and  I am confident in who I am sexually. I have more self love than ever before.

xo,

Megan