I started doing sex work 7 years ago but have only been doing sex work SOBER for 6 months. I never thought that I had any kind of problems with alcohol or drugs until February 2018 when an angry, drunken night sent me to the hospital for stitches, but it still took another 6 months to fully stop drinking. The very first time I danced at a strip club I was intoxicated, and after that, it was a slippery slope. I was lucky that nothing bad ever happened to me while working and being drunk, but I’d be lying if I said it didn’t cloud my judgment. I used to have to be drunk to do my job, which I hear so many dancers and models say.
I get it. Doing sex work is hard. Sometimes we’re doing it to survive, sometimes we’re faking confidence, sometimes we just want to have more fun while we’re working! Alcohol is a pretty socially acceptable form of entertainment and courage, but we don’t need it to get by. Something I have learned about myself is that I cannot control my emotions when I am intoxicated.
After my accident, I quit drinking, but relapse happened a few times. It’s so easy to succumb to temptation in a club environment, especially when managers tell you to never say no if a guest wants to buy you a drink. When I worked in BYOB clubs the girls in the back would always have bottles.
When I started camming more, I noticed a lot of models did “Shots for Tips.” I’m talking A LOT of models were doing this, and I felt like I needed to do it too. I would water down my shots so that I wouldn’t get quite as tipsy and thought I could basically play both roles. I could still be this fun, party girl on cam and stay sober to everyone else. The best decision I made at that moment was to stop doing “Shots for Tips.” It just wasn’t healthy for me and where I am in my life. I had to learn how to be fun without the alcohol, and that was scary at first. But I have really found myself in the process! It’s been fun to be my goofy, silly self without that aid.
Navigating life while sober has been an experience. Navigating sex work while sober is still a challenge. What has helped me the most in the last 6 months has been my support system. I have a really great group of online sex worker friends and my ManyVids family that I can always talk to when I’m feeling down or when I think I need a drink. A group of us have also made a pact to help each other stay sober when we’re at different cons and expos.
But most importantly I have myself. I have learned how to trust and challenge myself more than I ever thought I could, and that has made me more creative and motivated than ever before.
If you’re struggling with being sober while doing sex work, just know you aren’t alone. There is an entire community of us within our sex worker community. We can all be accountability buddies and live a happy, fulfilled life!
Enjoy a judgment-free ecosystem where you can celebrate and explore your passions!
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Thanks for sharing, we have some commonality
Beautifully written! Thank you so much for the insight! You’re amazing Celeste!
Thank you Porn0Bot for helping me get my story out there.
Thank you for such an amazing article. I've been sober for almost three years!
Congratulations!! Thats really awesome!
So proud of you & your sobriety! Thank you for sharing your struggles. I’m also sober, on 10 months now. It’s been a struggle but extremely rewarding! Congrats & sending love💕
Keep up the good work. You're doing so freaking well!!
Love this! I’ve been sober since before I started working and it’s been very challenging but I actually feel safer and more comfortable ❤️ Congrats on getting clean
Thank you so much!
You are very brave to start sober journey. And stay on right way. Congratulations.
Thank you so much
I love this ! Keep doing great! I'm 4 months sober on the 22nd!! ❤❤❤
Yay!! Congrats!!
These words are so inspiring, glad you found strength to pull through each day. You're loved.
Thank you so much. That means the world to me
Here’s a tip use water instead of alcohol 😂😂 but congrats I am sober now too 5 months
Congrats on your sobriety!
Congrats on realizing and accepting there is a problem that needs to change. And well done sticking with it it takes a lot of courage to change yourself.
Thank you so much. It's been really hard. I've failed a few times but I won't give up on myself.
As a performer who is currently getting sober, I truly appreciate you taking the time to say this. It's constantly encouraging to know that not only am I not alone in my struggle with alcohol, but that people like you show the light at the end of the tunnel, that demonstrate a will to be a human, a person, and a performer.
Wow, thank you so much for those words. You definitely are not alone. We can all be strength for each other when we feel weak.
Thanks for sharing
Thank you for taking the time to read my story.
This was really good to read and feel supported by. Thank you so much for sharing it!
Thank you
Thank you for sharing Celeste! I know this hits hard with many of us. You are such a wonderful person, and I look forward to seeing more amazing things from you. From your creative videos to your inspiring words.
Thank you so much babe. That means so much
Congrats to you for getting sober! That’s pretty bad ass of you! Also thanks for sharing your story..you will inspire others to follow! ❤️
Thank you It was tough writing this but I'm glad I did
So glad you got sober. I’ve seen some cam girls completely out of their minds while camming. And look a mess and it’s sad. I had an addiction but was prior to camming. And have been clean for over 10 yrs. Keep up the good work.
It makes me really sad and I relive a bit of my past when I see that. I hope those models know that it gets better. Congrats on being sober for 10 years! Thats truly amazing
You're amazing!!! Thanks so much sharing this with us
Thank you Anna
I like this article very much. It shows that real life is not always colorful.
We're all real people who go through some tough things sometimes. We aren't alone
Thank you for sharing this and I will always be here for you as well
Thank you so much
What an amazing read. Thank you for writing about this!
Thank you so much. That means a lot