There’s a reason why cuckolding resonates with you. It’s normal that me talking about you being sexually inadequate turns you on. You know in your heart that you are inferior to me. You might as well just renounce sex altogether, stay celibate. You will never be able to satisfy a woman in bed, so accept that having sex would be selfish. You don’t get to be selfish, you have to sacrifice sex so you don’t displease a woman. From now on, you will become best friends with your hand.