You already know this, whether you want to admit it or not, but I think you need to hear it out loud too. Accept it. Internalize it. Live it. Do you believe that wearing a diaper is no big deal, just a thing you do that has no real effect on your life? Wrong. Do you think your little fetish has had a positive impact or is, god forbid, a turn-on? Wrong again. The truth is that the moment you put on a diaper for the first time, you as good as locked yourself in chastity. It turned you into a sexless loser that only a Mommy can love.