As you can see, I'm filling the missing place you forsook with cigarettes. They fill my lungs with smoke and give me a bitter taste in my mouth, it's exactly what I was looking for. And if I think about it, there might be a thing that I absolutely love and can't live without: my Marlboro Red 100's cigarettes. I have them with me everywhere, like a little bunch of fries in a cardboard pack, in my pocket, and I can get one out whenever I want and calm down, feel good. I'm topless, wearing only panties and stockings, so you can glance at my boobs and realize what you have lost. The smoke makes the air thicker and grey-ish, but the most important thing is that it makes me happy, unlike you. I could smoke all day long and I wouldn't get bored, it's a complex activity and, in my opinion, the best way to please oneself.