Seeing myself sexualized made me sick since the beginning and I engaged in many avoidance tactics to survive, while already being in survival mode and using survival sex methods to avoid abusive and neglectful family homes. I started at 19 and am escaping with grace at 25. Respect my journey as I learn to leave behind a twisted and patriarchal industry. Victim blamers and shamers are asked to take a long and hard look at themselves and how they have affected society in all the ways.