There's a reason you keep getting sucked into this self-destructive cycle. You don't want to feel good. You aren't looking for some soft and fuzzy sensual domination. You want it to hurt. You want to look down at yourself covered in cum and feel shame and regret flow through you. I won't comfort you. I won't reassure you that you're a good person. I'm darkness personified and I'm going to make you spiral out of control. You will spend with reckless abandon. You will feel miserable. You won't ever stop.