It's time for you to accept your role as permanent cuckold. You're never going to be a real man that gets to fuck his wife, you're just a beta cuck. Consider yourself lucky that there is a position available for an inadequate shrimp dick like you on her clean up crew. If you're lucky, she might even let you pay for her condoms and her dates too. As your therapist, I will counsel you into accepting cuckolding in your life.