I think it's clear by now who the number 1 woman in your life is. Certainly not your wife. You can't help but put me up on a pedestal far above her. You need a woman in your life that understands your fetishes, excites you, makes you think of her night and day. Perhaps your wife has tried to understand your perversions, but let's face it. She'll never get this part of you like I do. That's why you can't help yourself and will always put me before your wife.