"There has always been a strange connection between Elder Berry and Elder Stewart. It is as though Berry is looking intoa mirror whenever he sees the younger boy around the mission. He remembers his own past, his unwillingness to act on his sexual feelings towards other boys. He wonders if Stewart has struggled with the same temptations, has felt the same guilt and fear he has. He worries that he has. He remembers just how painful and scary it was to repress every bit of sexual feeling that ever surfaced within himself. Because of this deep feeling of sympathy, Berry hopes to serve as an older stepbrother to Stewart on his journey towards The Order. But even though he feels protective over the boy, he also has a desire to be deep inside of him. He is unsure how to reconcile both feelings, so instead of acting on his fantasies, he chooses to live them out in his own head. As he lays on his bunk, he pictures what it would be like to seduce young Stewart. He can feel his body under his fingertips, sense his breathing get faster as he works his way towards the boy’s tight hole. He can even feel the boy’s sphincter open up to accept his thick cock inside. As he fantasizes, he whips out his penis to pleasure himself. He makes sure no one is around before stroking himself on the top bunk, indulging in some much-needed self-love. He even takes out a toy that he keeps hidden to play with. He shoves it inside his asshole as he jerks himself, getting closer and closer to eruption with every passing second. Finally, as he spurts semen from his hard cock, Berry realizes that his feelings for Stewart are more passionate than he initially thought. Maybe Stewart will be more than a companion to him after all."