I need you to finally come to terms with everything. It's stupid that you keep pretending otherwise, just admit you are gay. There is no way in hell that you're straight, I mean come on, how many fantasies about sucking cock do you have to have before you're finally willing to admit that perhaps you aren't as straight as you thought you were. You can keep up the lie elsewhere but it's time to come clean to me and finally admit all those feelings you've been denying for so long.