You’ve been getting rejected pretty much your whole life. It’s gotten to the point that rejection is inextricably tied to your sexuality. You don’t really have associations that involve positive sexual experiences, do you? You might not even have had sexual contact with a woman before. When you start to get horny, it always comes back to rejection. You think about the times that you’ve been laughed at, told no, or otherwise been humiliated. And you have a lot to draw from. You really have nothing to offer, so rejection is normal for you. At some point, you started to embrace it. You’ve gone down that path, and now it turns you on. How fucking pathetic. I can’t believe rejection makes you hard.