You know that, don't you? She just tolerates you. She puts up with you, but she's embarrassed by you. She thinks you're a pathetic, porn-addicted loser. And she's right. You know she would rather be with someone, anyone else. She'd rather celebrate holidays and birthdays with her friends, even another man. She's only with you because you benefit her in some way, but as soon as something better comes along, she'll leave you. You know she deserves better, but you're just happy to have her. You try and try to make her love you, but you know she never will. That's why you come to me. You think you could at least appeal to me in exactly the ways I demand and that would ensure my love for you. You pay for my attention, you serve to spoil me, and you devote yourself to seeing me happy. Your porn addiction fulfills you, gives you new purpose and hope that you can be worthy of someone's love. But is this love? Surely you love me, how it feels to have my attention, to see me smiling at you. But could you ever be worthy of my love? You know she doesn't love you. Have you earned my love?
