Your happiness comes from how much you have sacrificed for Me. How much have you devoted yourself to Me? You don't crave sex or even orgasms. What you really crave is My control over you, and once you cum the fun stops. The only thing you want is a life of sacrifice and servitude. Service to Me is all you crave. You ONLY want to be used. You want your body, mind, and life in the palm of My hand. You don't want to cum, you want to be denied. Orgasms are momentary bouts of pleasure. You want to keep edging, because you want to keep serving. When I control your cock, I control you. In a state of permanent denial, you're My puppet to command as I please.