You have always had a strong desire to submit yourself to a powerful, dangerous mistress... one who will lead you astray and into subspace bliss. However you are in a relationship... but nothing thrills you more than the idea of leading a secret life in which you are manipulated into submission. That no longer has to be an 'idea' that fantasy can come alive as you start to get more consumed in me to the point in which you start to neglect your marriage.