Mesmerizing mean girl

Something about me captivates you. You are painfully aware, that you have nothing but cruelty to expect from me. But still, you stay. You listen. You look at me in desperation, feeling so weak. Your tiny- not good for anything dicklet throbbing. Nasty. Yes, that's what it is. Useless. But you are doomed to stroke to me, listening to my insults anyway. I use a blue yeti microphone and an Ultra-HD 1080p camera to film with.