Tell me, when you watch porn are you watching the woman or the man? Mhmm, that's what I thought. You've told yourself that you are straight and that you like women but that isn't really true is it? Straight men don't fantasize about cock all the time. They don't wish they were the women in porn, and they certainly don't wish they were getting fucked by a huge dick. You're definitely gay, there's nothing wrong with that but it needs to be acknowledged.