Sadness. Loneliness. Desperation. Resignation. Impotence. When tears show up, all my mind is full of negative feelings. All monsters and ghost emotions pile up together to fill my brain and my heart, and it hurts. It hurts a lot. And then my eyes burst into tears of pain. These are probably my most intimate moments, those which few people know and can see, and now you are a witness of my real deep emotions.
Lying in my bed on Friday night, I just can cry. Sadness always comes alone and stays with you , making your heart weak and vulnerable. My eyes reflect what my mind is feeling right now. They start shining and then... the ocean. The storm. The big storm and then the downpour.
Sobbing a lot like a little girl.
And my nose is stuffy.
And my face is red. It transmits my internal tragedy at this very moment. There is nothing more beyond my shiny and watery eyes. I am looking for some tenderness, some protection and the hug of my sheet and my pillow like a poor annimal. I look so defenceless.
Storm, storm, rough storm... but then silence. The calm comes and you can feel and breath my peace, my relaxation, my relief. You almost can touch it. I am tired of crying and I need to sleeeep. Time to rest from my suffering.
YOU WILL LIKE IT IF: you would comfort me with your arms open if you were here.
HIGHLIGHTED: one of my most heartbreaking crying clips so far.
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