I love the constant push-pull that you have with this content. Leaving for a while, maybe even deleting your account, and then coming back to goon harder than ever. When you used to just do it for a few minutes, now it's hours, maybe even DAYS. But sometimes you pull it together. You try to live a "normal" life. Then it fails, and you don't know why you're back. But I know why. It's because you're trapped in a cycle of self-sabotage. You see, self-sabotage is actually about remaining in control. You do it to keep things the same. So they're predictable. Even if it's not the life you want, it's the life that's familiar and safe. And I know you're just going to keep doing it. There's no way you'd cut it out there in the real world. You have no coping skills! You probably couldn't even stay hard to fuck someone! So instead of going out there and embarrassing yourself in a NEW way, stay here and let me humiliate you the comforting way.