Mother is home from the office. She is figuring out dinner for us. She is on my case all the time and now it's about job hunting. I told her that job hunting isn't going well and she thinks I need to clean up my look and shave my beard and I will have better luck. No way! My girlfriend at school LOVES my beard! She says it makes me look like a man. My Mother doesn't think so. She is so controlling and bossy and wants me to be successful like her and my Father. It's just so stressful being here sometimes, with a Mother who gets up at 5am and goes to the gym, then controls an office all day and wants to also control her son. She keeps herself perfect at all times, her hair, nails, skin. I must admit she is very attractive. My friends are always flirting with her. It makes me feel jealous sometimes when she flirts back. Mother is yelling at me for my beard now. She is so strict! I don't deserve her yelling at me right now. I guess Mom feels bad because she is apologizing and saying we should order some take-out, and she is rubbing my shoulders again and being weird again. I am tingly all over my body. She hasn't acted this way towards me in a very long time. She wants to take a bath and wants to talk to me about us not getting along and how happy Dad would be if he came home and saw us smiling instead of fighting for a change. I'm trying not to look at her. She now wants me to rub her feet! Oh man, this is so hot but wait....this is also not right. I should tell Mom that I don't want this, I am going to tell her.......she says it's OK and I should learn what a real woman's body is like anyway......stop Mom.....this isn't right