As a part of my healing process I want to let all this out. I hope it will make someone feel like they are not alone and for others to know how messed up it can be on the inside. There are plenty of genuine good people inside, the system is messed up just like in MLMs and in all other types of cults. Fear and shame silence people and shunning brings a lot of pain., all in the name of a God that will poof you if you do something outside the line, when God should be love, right?