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I met a woman at Walmart and it’s been going good but I think she tricks on the weekends on harry hines. Been nice staying with her for the time being. Been eating good with her. Helping her out when I can. Just enjoying the time I have before it’s gone. Just riding the wave for what it is. I feel empty. This sucks.

I need therapy. I can’t stop having or attempting to have sex with random women. I ask for as many I can get, their numbers or insta, and they give it to me. Any woman I find any form of attraction whether they have a nice ass, huge tits, pretty face or feet, I’ll ask them if I can follow them on insta and they always say yes. And they steady watch my stories lol. But ever since I got this tattoo idk women been all over me. They like me enough just to fuck me. Nothing more. I’m useless for anything else to them. I’m worthless to them besides sex. And they always ask me to eat their pussies. Smh. I’m getting tired of it. I’m addicted to women. Help me love myself again. Please. I’ve been lost without you, even as a friend.

After this I’m no longer writing nothing that’s it

Not the point when you came to my house and shot up my crib and basically was on drüggs and you sabotaged me by getting a monitor on my leg but you still want to continue to throw me under the bus. And I told you time and time again, listen and I will help. YOU NEVER DID. Now I ask of you to leave me be, and you continue to be spiteful. You really think that I won’t walk this earth not knowing you for life? Really? One of us is going to have to stop the bs and it won’t be by one of us missing life. I left you alone. Leave me alone. I will still know you forever. It’s best to leave one another alone.

I’m no longer going to write anything here. Let this be the last day you log in. Do right. Let gene enjoy her life with both her pärents. It’s the least you can do for me and her and especially her. I’m not asking for anything obviously. I just want to be there. That’s all. Just stop being mad over literally “hot air”. It’s all in ur mind. Let it go. Be peaceful. Geez.

But fr tho why be that mad over what I type here? Just stop logging in. Let’s call a truce and leave eachother ALONE. Don’t log back in. That’s it. Make it a final day. Leave eachother alone. Even like this. We’re still bickering at one another for what? Seriously. I just write random crap to get under ur skin. It’s stupid of me yes, but I don’t intend on wrong doing towards you. You know in my heart I still love you. No matter what. I still think about you. I truly want what’s best for you. So stfu abt tryna continue to throw me under the buss. Just let me be a fäther to gene and leave me alone. I’ve been leaving you alone for the past almost two years besides what’s written here. I’ve done nothing to you. Focus on your life man fr. I shouldn’t even be mentioned.

And just because someone got an AR tatted just like I already got a 45 tatted with a Jason don’t mean you gangsta. You know I’ve been rocking 556 before I even knew of your flings. You KNOW THIS! This tattoo signifies where I come from and my people in the forces. Yk what I’m talkin bout. I rock army BDU pants 25/8 yk THIS GOOFY! It’s not about what you THINK get outta yo own head FOO. The world not revolving around your preferences. And if I claim to be anything it’s a THUG just like Tupac and Zro say True Hero Under God. Be real mf. You know ur dude got no style that’s why ur mad. He can’t claim none of what I just stated above. He don’t got fam in the forces, he don’t own a 556, he don’t believe in god cause if he did he wouldn’t be where he’s at. I claim all that

And nobody wanna claim you either. You can’t even claim ur own ïncrst s0ns name on his birth certificate. You need to stay in your lane just like I’m staying in mine. You just proving jealousy by logging back in here. Live your so called ‘good life.’ Leave me alone then. And love your chïldren by doing what’s right. Ruining Gene by savoring a jail bird for her as a fäther is completely wrong and you know this. You have not changed at all. Parenting classes talks about embracing coming together and preserving the parents in their lives. Nobody wants you like that. Just do right for Gene. I just know that you still need to grow up and go thru a lot more for you to wake tf up. Just ruing your eldest mind is just not the Christian way. Do better.