You call yourself a Christian, but the multitude of your iniquities show otherwise. You are a lukewarm believer. A sinner. Jesus said, go and sin no more, so why do you keep sinning? Tears on your pillow, so ashamed of what's going on inside your brain. But all your prayers do no good, when you don't do what you should. You tolerate the spirit of Jezebel who seduces you to practice sexual immorality. All those women you masturbate to creates soul ties, which gives them power over you. Jesus said if your hand causes you to sin, cut it off! It's time to repent, time to atone.