You have a deep, dark fantasy that you've suppressed for years and now it's time to bring it to light: cock turns you on. There is nothing you would rather do than get on your knees and suck off a real man. We both know it's true, but your mean step-Father is getting in the way. He has confronted you about your love for cock in the past, but you lied your ass off to him. This created feelings of shame and guilt around your fantasy, which is why it has been suppressed for so long. This needs to end. You deserve to have your fantasy become a reality and I know just what to do in order to make it happen.